its been awhile

So much has happened since my last entry, jeeze I really need to get better about keeping up on this :)  Our 1st appointment with Dr. Kustin back in February was awesome I really liked him so did Joby and mom, true he is a little "rough around the edges" but still I knew that he had our best interest at heart.  He looked at our file from 2008 when we started this whole and said that based off our test results we would be fine to try 3 IUI cycles then move on to IVF if needed.  I was super excited to hear that we still had a chance to try to conceive that way rather that jumping right in to IVF, we started that day with a "natural IUI cycle" meaning no hormone drugs for me just a trigger shot to get me to ovulate and then using Joby's sperm presto an IUI cycle.  Then comes the dreaded 2 week wait........... the longest 2 weeks of my life truly.  Well we all know how that turned out, we ended up doing 3 more IUI cycles with a drug called clomid for me oh yay let me tell you its not fun I now know how my mom feels getting hot flashes :( along with hot flashes comes mood swings bloating and all around just being super uncomfortable but hey its worth it right?????!!!!  So all 4 IUI's did not work, everytime I would go to get my blood drawn on day 21 of my  cycle they would say oh everything looks so wonderful!  Grrrr well not some much, going in for another blood draw 5 days later to only be told 3 hours later that youre not pregnant really sucks.  So that leaves us in the present well last week to be exact, mom and I went to meet Dr. Kustin to talk about the IVF process, well it seems that Joby's sprem are lazy(sorry honey) and cant fertilize my eggs.  Dr Kustin said that I have had enough and its time to move on, so in I went for yet another fun exam the sonogram of my uterus, doesn't sound too bad right? wrong!  Just like a pap only then a catheter of saline goes up into my uterus so the doc can see exactly where he will place the eggs and to ensure that there are not any fibroids growing in there.  Ahhh im so done with these tests, the cramping and invasiveness is just overwhelming, but I am happy to report that my uterus looks amazing :)  After the fun test I got to sit on a puppy pee pad while all the saline came out, im pretty sure thats what your water breaking must feel like ewwww.  Thank God I have such an amazing supportive mother who was there to hold my hand and make me feel better.  As of today I still have many questions about IVF and what will happen but im trying to be patient and go with the flow. We will have the schedule hopefully around the 26th of June for the actual procedure in August!!!!!  For those of you who are curious what IVF is/does check out www.seattleivf.com its my doctors website and is super informative. Until next time, love you all.........